Sunday, April 09, 2006

Pic of me

Finally got around to finding a relatively recent picture of me. Not a very good one but there were not very many to choose from. I don't have many pictures of myself. This was taken in New Mexico on our last family vacation two years ago. Posted by Picasa

Instant regret

Ever want to take back an email you've just sent?

I just sent an email that was very hard to write, and very hard to send. If it were real mail, I know I would have never actually put it in the box. Or if I had, I would more than likely take it out before the mail-lady could pick it up. Email does not give you that option. Once you push the SEND button, there is no going back. That is probably for the best in this case. The letter needed to be sent. I am partially glad I sent it, the part that isn't hiding in the corner anyway.

Some people say that the internet encourages dishonesty but I find it to be just the opposite for me. I am far more honest in text than I am in person. I find it easier to say an untruth than to write one. Strange. Text has always been an outlet for my innermost thoughts. I don't know why it is easier to write a letter to someone than it is to talk to them. Maybe it is because you can read your words over and change your wording. You can't go back and change the words you used in a conversation. Also you can say everything without interruption in a letter, whereas in verbal discourse you must pause to listen to the other person's comments. It is also easier to lose your nerve and change the subject when you are speaking in person. When I write, I am not nervous until I actually have to hit the SEND button. Often I get nervous after I hit it, which is pointless because it has already shot its way halfway across cyberspace to its destination, but nerves do not choose to obey logic.

I suppose there is always the possibility that the letter will end up in the junkbox or will not get read for one reason or another. That is also a nervewracking idea. For if you get no response, you have to ask yourself whether that is because your letter was never read or because the person does not wish to respond. I know that I will be kind of stressed out for the next couple of days at least.

I think I am glad that there is no UNSEND button. But if you ask me in two days I will likely have a different answer