died for me

this is a list of stuff that died for me today... I don't know if I would be particularly good at Jainism...

We Died for Jessy on Tuesday
melaluca leaves
cotton
leather
rubber tree?
tea
coffee beans
chickens
wheat
oats
grapes
cows (milk)
apples
sugar cane
bees? (does honey count?)
cinnamon bark
peppercorns
more sugar cane
more bees
more cows
more wheat
some vegetables that gave oil for my food to be fried in... at least I hope they were vegetables...
more chickens
rice
still more chickens
cocoa beans
peanuts
trees, lots of trees
broccoli
more cows
carrots
celery
more apples
more cocoa beans
still more apples
more cinnamon
nutmeg
cardamom
more wheat
more honeybees
more sugarcane
more tea
corn
lots of trees
yet more additional cows
still more cotton
and more rubber trees
probably some dinosaurs and prehistoric plants but I don't know exactly where Centenary's electricity comes from and what kind of plant it is generated in.
more dinosaurs for all the plastic stuff i used today. (including this computer)

I just took it again and only changed one answer and got


1. Mahayana Buddhism (100%)
2. Neo-Pagan (96%)
3. Unitarian Universalism (90%)
4. Jainism (89%)
5. Hinduism (88%)
6. Theravada Buddhism (83%)
7. Liberal Quakers (81%)
8. New Age (80%)
9. Reform Judaism (72%)
10. Sikhism (72%)
11. Scientology (70%)
12. Taoism (69%)
13. New Thought (66%)
14. Bahá'í Faith (63%)
15. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (59%)
16. Orthodox Quaker (55%)
17. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (54%)
18. Secular Humanism (52%)
19. Orthodox Judaism (51%)
20. Islam (45%)
21. Seventh Day Adventist (30%)
22. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (28%)
23. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (28%)
24. Nontheist (26%)
25. Jehovah's Witness (19%)
26. Eastern Orthodox (17%)
27. Roman Catholic (17%)

I think this one made more sense

I took the belief-o-matic quiz again and my results were different from when I took it some four or five months ago. I don't know if that is good or bad.

belief-o-matic

1. Hinduism (100%)
2. Mahayana Buddhism (95%)
3. Neo-Pagan (94%)
4. Unitarian Universalism (86%)
5. Sikhism (82%)
6. Jainism (79%)
7. New Age (74%)
8. Theravada Buddhism (71%)
9. Liberal Quakers (69%)
10. Reform Judaism (62%)
11. Scientology (61%)
12. New Thought (59%)
13. Orthodox Judaism (56%)
14. Taoism (55%)
15. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (53%)
16. Bahá'í Faith (53%)
17. Orthodox Quaker (50%)
18. Secular Humanism (44%)
19. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (43%)
20. Islam (40%)
21. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (37%)
22. Seventh Day Adventist (29%)
23. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (27%)
24. Jehovah's Witness (26%)
25. Eastern Orthodox (24%)
26. Roman Catholic (24%)
27. Nontheist (23%)

I realize that I have been neglecting this blog in favor of others both for myself and for my character. I don't feel that I can really post honestly to this blog anymore. At least not about important things.

I have been kind of depressed and sad lately. I have also had moments of great joy. I am living on an emotional rollercoaster but none of the emotions are really mine. Nothing is really mine, not even my tears. I don't know why I get involved in things that I can't fix. I don't know why I need so much control. If there is one thing I have learned in the past month it is that you can only live vicariously through others for so long and then it stops making you happy and only makes you jealous. I don't want to be jealous, I just want to be happy. I want everyone to be happy. but I can't have what I want.

I am sorry i haven't been posting. I am sorry I have been kind of a flake. I am sorry I don't know what I really want or how to get it.