I took the belief-o-matic quiz again and my results were different from when I took it some four or five months ago. I don't know if that is good or bad.

belief-o-matic

1. Hinduism (100%)
2. Mahayana Buddhism (95%)
3. Neo-Pagan (94%)
4. Unitarian Universalism (86%)
5. Sikhism (82%)
6. Jainism (79%)
7. New Age (74%)
8. Theravada Buddhism (71%)
9. Liberal Quakers (69%)
10. Reform Judaism (62%)
11. Scientology (61%)
12. New Thought (59%)
13. Orthodox Judaism (56%)
14. Taoism (55%)
15. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (53%)
16. Bahá'í Faith (53%)
17. Orthodox Quaker (50%)
18. Secular Humanism (44%)
19. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (43%)
20. Islam (40%)
21. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (37%)
22. Seventh Day Adventist (29%)
23. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (27%)
24. Jehovah's Witness (26%)
25. Eastern Orthodox (24%)
26. Roman Catholic (24%)
27. Nontheist (23%)

I realize that I have been neglecting this blog in favor of others both for myself and for my character. I don't feel that I can really post honestly to this blog anymore. At least not about important things.

I have been kind of depressed and sad lately. I have also had moments of great joy. I am living on an emotional rollercoaster but none of the emotions are really mine. Nothing is really mine, not even my tears. I don't know why I get involved in things that I can't fix. I don't know why I need so much control. If there is one thing I have learned in the past month it is that you can only live vicariously through others for so long and then it stops making you happy and only makes you jealous. I don't want to be jealous, I just want to be happy. I want everyone to be happy. but I can't have what I want.

I am sorry i haven't been posting. I am sorry I have been kind of a flake. I am sorry I don't know what I really want or how to get it.

Well the new room still smells like chemicals, the toilet is tempermental, and there are a lot more scratches and gouges in the walls than we first thought. I brought a bunch of stuff from home but there are still lots of things I don't have. I suppose I am not a very good resident. I still have that commuter mentality where I don't think of stuff that I would normally not need to think of, like towels and other stuff. I also keep feeling weird about my roomate. It isn't bad just weird... I don't normally just randomly talk to people and I feel the need to say something to her. Maybe I will get used to it, I don't know. I have to figure out how to read her, but she is so hard to read. It is odd.

YAY!

Hee hee! I am now in my new room... it still smells like paint. I don't care; I am really just very happy to be in here. I forgot a bunch of stuff at home ... including my blanket but hey whatever. I do have a small blanket just not the big comforter that I was planning to bring. I will fetch that and a bunch of other stuff tomorrow. Right now I am going to go and sleep in my new bed. hee hee!

I lied. I haven't been posting. I am a baaaddd baaaddd blogger. Ah well. I have been much busier than I thought I would have been. Much busier than I was when I posted last. I had fun with the holiday weekend... not going to describe that thanks. I don't want to think about it too much. No time to blog then and now I am blocking it out. After the weekend some of the camp employees ate worms... Don't even ask why. I had to go back to school early... I am still here actually. Got here on thursday after a great breakfast w/Shannon. Eight weeks felt like 8 hours and 8 years at the same time... Just so much information that needed to be shared. Let the bonding begin... New tutors, New New tutors and old tutors all together at last. I am slightly worried about this, but I suppose it will all work out in the end. The bonding fun continued yesterday at the ropes course... we are all in pain today, although I am rather surprised at myself for doing some of that stuff... Jessy of the no upper body streangth and everything. My shoulders still hurt tho. Today was orientation prep. We had to get the college ready for the mad influx of frosh that will be arriving in the morning. A few of them are here already. I am still somewhat homeless at least for a few more hours. We were told that we could move in on thursday, and some people could. But the rest of us who live in the new dorm have been strung along like popcorn waiting for our rooms. Yesterday they finally got a temporary certificate of occupancy, but the people who were doing the building had left such a mess that it won't be ready til 6pm today. I am so excited!